Ambivalent, neither nor

I once lived in a double wide with a woman who I allowed to drag me down

I once believed I didn’t deserve happiness, family, comfort

I once believed that the shower would never get above 75 degrees Fahrenheit

And I thought that would be the best I could expect

If you believe in mediocre you will experience it just enough to satisfy but never indulge

If I accept what is then how can I expect inspiration to find me

Blah blah fucking blah

Meh is not 3 letters it is a death sentence